Like it was yesterday.

We were sitting on the couch

You were saying "babe we need to talk"

You told me that you're going to move

In two weeks time

Now it's about eight months

Since the day you left me, 8th of April.

About six months

Since you cut me off, 1st of May.

Don't know what I did wrong,

I thought we remain friends.

I thought I built a concrete wall inside my heart

To keep me from breaking down from the thoughts of you.

I froze my heart

Because I don't want to repeat what happened six months ago.

In August you texted me,

I assumed we're fine

At least fine enough

Until you decided to disappear again.

As if you're gone with the wind.

I told everyone I'm over you

I told everyone I can't feel love anymore

When the truth is, you left a big hole in my heart.

What's left is just pain, I'm too scared to fall in love.

The concrete wall that I built is broken,

It couldn't handle the emotions

That's trying to escape.  

I remember you told me

"Never cry over boys"

Yet here I am, crying over you.

I remember you told me

"There will be someone who will love you permanently"

Yet here I am, mourning over a rainbow.

Such irony. 

How a month could give me this much hollow.

How a month could leave a big scar.

Honestly, I'm scared there will be no one like you.

Someone who opens the door for his girl.

Someone who's being so protective when taking a night walk.

Someone who is caring and genuine.

I remember on your last day you picked me up from the train station,

And we walked home together,

But you stopped by at a small balcony above the indoor pool

Just to talk to me.

It was about 30 minutes

Of talking and long hugs.

I remember I waited for you every Tuesday at the train station,

Just to walk home together.

I remember we went for a swim almost every weekend.

I remember you tried to make time for me,

Squeeze me in your busy schedule,

At least every once a week we get to sit at the apartment's park

And talk about how our days been.

I remember the time you looked at me in the eyes and say:

"I'll have to go now"

Like it was just yesterday.

But I also remember,

You came to my life as a rainbow.

We knew from the beginning that Us are just temporary.

You came to my life to give colours and once my life is colourful,

Your job is done.

You left me with the feeling of emptiness.

A colourful world without anyone living in it.

A colourful world that slowly fades.

And turned into black and white,

Once again.